At the age of 70, I’ve finally accepted these 10 harsh life truths (even though it took way too long)

I turned 70 this past spring, and I’d love to tell you I arrived here full of hard-won wisdom.

The real story?  I spent most of my life learning the same small handful of things very slowly, and usually more than once.

Most of what I understand now, I understood in some rough form decades ago.

I just didn’t believe it, or I believed it and kept living as if it weren’t true, which comes to the same thing. I had the information the whole time. I argued with it.

So these aren’t ten things I discovered. These are ten things I finally stopped fighting.

1. Almost no one is thinking about you as much as you’re afraid they are

For most of my adult life, I assumed I was being watched and judged far more closely than I was.

I’d say something slightly wrong at a dinner and then chew on it the whole drive home, and again at midnight, and sometimes again a week later. I was sure everyone kept the same detailed file on me that I kept on myself.

They didn’t. They were thinking about their own dinner, their own drive home, their own mistakes. The comment I spent an entire afternoon agonizing over had been forgotten by the person I said it to before they’d left the parking lot. I lost an enormous number of hours being the main character in conversations that everyone else had already walked away from.

2. At some point, you start counting how much time you have left

I used to treat time as though the supply were endless. I put things off — the trip to Italy, the hard talk with my son, the call to a friend I’d let drift — on the theory that a calmer season for all of it was coming.

Then a friend exactly my age died two summers ago, fast, between one appointment and the next. And I caught myself counting time, which I’d never done before. Fifteen years left, if I’m lucky. Ten of them good. That isn’t morbid at 70; it’s just the math, and the math changes what you’re willing to postpone. I took the trip. I made the call. I’m not being brave about it. I just can’t pretend the supply is bottomless now that I can see where it runs out.

3. Most of what you worry about never happens, and the worrying costs something

I was a worrier from childhood. That didn’t change in adulthood.

I worried about money when we were financially fine, about illnesses I never got, about my kids in ways that I now see are ridiculous. I kept a running ledger of disasters, and maybe one in twenty years ever arrived.

What I failed to understand for about forty years is that the worry isn’t free even when the disaster never comes. I paid for every imagined catastrophe up front — in sleep, in attention, in sitting at the dinner table while my mind was three weeks into a future that never happened. The disasters cost me almost nothing. The worrying cost me a lot of years, which, frankly,  I’d like back.

4. No one is coming to save you

I wouldn’t have ever admitted it, but for part of my life, I was waiting to be rescued. I wasn’t sitting locked in a tower or anything, I just wanted an escape from the ordinary wreckage of my own choices.

Some part of me believed that if I held on long enough, my father would step in, or the right job would land in my lap, or some more capable adult would show up and take the wheel.

Nobody came. My father had his own troubles and was never going to be that man. The job didn’t land; I had to go find one. The capable adult I kept scanning the room for was supposed to be me the whole time. I was nearly 50 before I quit waiting. I’m not bitter about it. I just wish someone had told me the waiting room was empty.

5. Doing everything right doesn’t protect you from losing, and nothing evens it out later

I believed that following the rules came with protection. Work hard, treat people decently, don’t cut corners, and the world would hold up its end of a bargain I’d never actually signed.

It doesn’t work that way, and I stayed angry about that far longer than was useful.

I gave a company nineteen good years and was let go at 54 in a reorganization that had nothing to do with my work. And I was always waiting for the moment when the books would balance, and the loyalty would get repaid.

There was no later chapter. The books never balanced.

I’m still careful, though, and I still don’t cut corners. I just don’t expect the world to notice or pay me back for it anymore.

6. People show you who they are early — believe them

People showed me who they were early, almost every time, and almost every time I argued with the evidence.

A business partner who was casually dishonest in small ways in our first month turned out to be dishonest in a very large way three years on. I’d had everything I needed in the first month. I just didn’t want it to be true, so I built careful, generous explanations for behavior that didn’t need explaining.

I did the same in friendships. The friend who was unkind to a waiter the first time we ate out was, in the end, unkind to me, too.

The pattern was always there at the start, in miniature. I didn’t miss it. I talked myself out of it, which is the part I regret.

7. Winning the argument and losing the person is a trade-off

I was good at arguments. I could find the weak point in someone’s reasoning and drive a truck through it, and for decades, I mistook that for a strength.

I won most of them.

What I never tallied at the time was the cost of winning.

There’s a brother-in-law I was right about — completely, provably right — in a dispute whose details I honestly can’t remember anymore, and afterward the two of us barely spoke for nine years. I won that one. I also spent nine years of Thanksgivings sitting alone while he, the easy one to talk to, held court at the far end of the table.

Being right felt good for about an hour. The nine years did not. I don’t try to win at the dinner table now. I’d rather still have the people sitting at it.

8. You can’t make someone value you by being more valuable

I always ran on one theory: if someone didn’t value me, the fix was to become more valuable. Work harder, achieve more, be more useful, and surely they’d come around.

I aimed most of it at my mother, who was withholding in a way I spent decades trying to solve with accomplishments. I’d earn a promotion and carry it to her like a cat dropping a dead bird on the doorstep, and she’d find, every time, the one detail that kept it from being quite enough. It took me far too long to see that her coldness wasn’t a grade I could raise by studying harder. It was just who she was. No title and no salary was ever going to open a door she’d decided to keep shut.

9. The body you ignored in your forties is the one you have to live in now

I treated my body in my forties like a rental car — something I’d hand back at the end with the dents charged to somebody else.

I sat at a desk all day. I ignored a knee that ached for most of a decade because dealing with it was inconvenient, and I had a meeting.

And, you know what? The bill came, the way these things do, just later than I expected.

That knee now runs (well, walks) my whole day. The back I never once thought about is a daily negotiation. Don’t worry about me — I’m 70 and mostly fine. But I’d give a lot to sit my 45-year-old self down and explain that the body he was running into the ground wasn’t a loaner. It was the only one he was ever going to get.

10. Happiness is mostly the ordinary stuff that happens while you’re waiting for something bigger

I spent years treating my real life as a waiting room for the better life that was always about to begin. Once the promotion came, once the mortgage was gone, once the kids were grown and settled — then I’d relax, then I’d let myself enjoy it.

The big milestones did arrive, and they were fine. But they were never where the happiness actually was.

The happiness was in the ordinary mornings I was too busy to notice. Coffee on the back step. My wife reading in the chair across from me, neither of us talking. My grandson’s hand in mine in a parking lot. I was so fixed on the horizon that I walked through a few thousand perfectly good, ordinary days, barely looking at them.

This morning I had my coffee on the step and watched the light come up, and didn’t spend one second of it waiting for something else. That alone took me 70 years.

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