I’ve been an old person long enough to know that I’m treated differently.
Specifically, somewhere in the last few years, people stopped aiming their questions at me.
Take that as a measurement, not a grievance. I kept count for a while, the way you’d keep count of anything you didn’t want to be right about, and I was right about it.
The question comes into the room, and it goes to whoever drove me.
The waiter asks my son. The doctor asks my daughter. The man at the tire place asks my son-in-law what I want done about the alignment, and I am standing right there, holding my own keys.
So I’ve started answering anyway. Not louder. Earlier.
What it looks like from where I’m sitting
The waiter takes my son’s order and then says, “And for him?”
Him. I’m eighteen inches away, with reading glasses on, holding the menu he handed me.
My son says, “Dad?” and does it kindly, and the whole table waits while I say the fish, and the waiter writes down the fish while looking at my son.
At the doctor, my daughter drove, so my daughter gets asked how I’ve been sleeping. She lives forty minutes away. She has no idea how I’ve been sleeping.
She turns and looks at me, and I tell her, and she tells him, and everyone is satisfied except me.
The pharmacist explains my dosage to whoever’s nearest the counter.
Nobody is rude to me. That’s the thing. They’re pleasant, they hold the door, they call me sir, and they route every question that concerns my body around my body to a person standing behind me.
And there’s nothing to object to, because there’s nothing to point at. A waiter used a pronoun. Try making a scene about a pronoun and see how it goes for you.
So I answer anyway, and I answer first
It’s a timing problem before it’s anything else.
When a question is aimed at you, it comes with a little rest at the end. A beat of silence where your answer goes.
When it’s aimed past you, that beat gets taken out. The question flows straight on into somebody else’s mouth, and if you wait for the pause where your answer used to go, there isn’t one anymore.
Your turn has already been used, by somebody who was raised to be helpful.
So I don’t wait. I come in on the comma.
“Does he take anything for the blood pres—”
“Amlodipine. Five milligrams. Since 2019, and it works.”
There’s a half-second afterward where everyone in the room adjusts. The doctor turns his chair. My daughter shuts her mouth and, I notice, smiles at the wall. The conversation reorganizes itself around the fact that I’m in it.
I have become, at seventy-four, a man who interrupts. My mother would be appalled. I’ve made my peace with it.
What it takes is attention. I have to be listening from the moment we walk in, all of me, the whole time, because the question can arrive at any point and it will not wait for me to catch up.
My son can look at his phone until his name comes up. I can’t.
It’s work. I go home from the pharmacy tired in a way I never used to be tired at a pharmacy, and I do it again on Thursday.
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It gets handed over one question at a time
I have run this body since Truman was president. I’ve made every decision about it, including some poor ones I’d defend in court.
The knee is mine. The pill is mine. The choice about whether to have the second procedure or live with the thing and take up swimming is mine.
And I’d like it explained to me, in the room, at a volume I can hear, in words I’m perfectly capable of understanding.
Nobody is trying to take that away from me. That’s what makes it slippery. It goes across the table one question at a time, handed over by people who love me, in the name of getting through the appointment.
I’ve watched where that ends. A man I’ve known since 1971 let his wife answer for him, because she was faster and it saved everybody a minute.
Then she died, and his son answered for him. Now he sits with his hands folded while three people discuss his sodium in front of him.
He’s sharp. He’s sharper than his son. He hasn’t said a word in that room in two years.
Nobody decided that. It was just easier every single time, and easier won.
Where I’m the problem
My granddaughter is twenty-three, and she answers before the sentence has finished. Correctly, with my appointment time and a thing about the insurance she has memorized for no reason.
She isn’t stepping over me. She’s fast, the way I was fast at her age. That’s not an injustice. That’s life. It just means I go earlier, and I’ve gotten good at going earlier.
Where it goes wrong is when I do it badly.
There’s a version of this where I make a stand at every dinner. Where I snap at a nineteen-year-old waiter who has never had a single thought about me.
Where I come in early on a question I misheard, loudly and wrong, and my son has to step in and fix it, and I’ve handed everyone at that table a reason to route around me next time.
I’ve done all three. Not often. Often enough to know the difference between staying in the room and starting a fight in it.
Think of the last three times somebody talked about you in the third person while you were sitting right there. Did you say something?
Or did you let it go, because it was faster, and because saying something would have made a small scene about a small thing?
I let it go for about two years. Not out of grace, and not because I hadn’t noticed. It was faster, and I was tired, and I told myself it was only a waiter.
The second question
Last week at the pharmacy, my daughter came with me because she was going that way anyway.
The kid behind the counter started the sentence, and I could see the shape of it coming, the way you see a car drifting into your lane. He was going to ask her.
I got in early. Said the name of the medication, the dose, and that I’d had it since 2019, and it hadn’t given me any trouble.
He looked at me. He said, “Any dizziness when you stand up?”
Aimed at me. A question with a little rest at the end of it, sitting there waiting for me to fill.
I said no. He said good, and we talked about it for another minute, and my daughter stood behind me and let it happen.
That’s the whole thing I’m after. Not respect, exactly, and not a fuss. Just the second question, pointed in my direction, while I’m still here to answer it.
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