I Might Miss You, But I’d Never Take You Back

We had some really great times and I’ll never forget that. Sometimes I miss the hell out of you — I’m only human, after all. But let’s get one thing clear: just because I miss you doesn’t mean I’d ever take you back.

  1. I miss the good times, not the bad. I miss the fun we used to have. I miss the way you made me laugh. I miss thinking that you were the one person I could count on. I don’t miss the fights, though. I don’t miss the way you made me feel insecure or like I was never enough. I miss the good times, but they definitely weren’t worth the bad.
  2. I miss the old you but I don’t like who you’ve become. Sometimes I still wish we could be those two kids who fell in love so many years ago, but we’re not those people anymore. You’re not going back to the boy I fell in love with, that much is clear. This new you is here to stay and you’re not who I want in my life.
  3. I can forgive you but I can’t forget. I’ll forgive you for everything you’ve done so that I can move on but I won’t forget the way you treated me. I won’t forget the way you kept me on the hook or the way you made me dead last on your list of priorities. I won’t forget how you made me feel like I was nothing. I can forgive it all, but if I forget it then I’ll never learn and I might make the same mistake again.
  4. I know I deserve better. You treated me like crap and I’d have to be crazy to put myself through that all over again. When I was with you, my self-esteem was at an all-time low, but now I have the confidence to hold out for the man I deserve. Going back to you would be settling and we both deserve better than that.
  5. Missing you is a weakness… But my strength is refusing to take you back. I can admit I miss you sometimes but I’ll never give into that fleeting feeling. When I’m down on my luck, I look back to my last moment of comfort. You used to comfort me and I miss that on the bad days. Tomorrow is a new day, though, and on better days, I know I’m so much better off without you.
  6. I want what I thought we had. Now I want that with someone else, though. I want a man who feels lucky to be with me. I want a man who’s head over heels in love with me and makes me so grateful every single day that I found him. That man is out there, but he definitely isn’t you.
  7. I miss having a boyfriend. I shouldn’t want to be with you just because I don’t have anyone else or just because I don’t want to be single. What I really miss is the comfort of having a partner by my side. I want that again, and sometimes I might reminisce about when that man was you. Thankfully, I’m smart enough to know the difference between missing you and missing being in a relationship in general.
  8. I don’t miss you all the time. Just sometimes. Most of the time when I have my head on straight I remember what a jerk you really were. Every once in a while, though, I’m still fooled by your smile and I’m charmed into missing you. Nevertheless, there’s one thing I’m sure of: I’ll never take you back.
Kelsey Dykstra is a freelance writer based in Huntington Beach, CA. She has a bachelor’s degree in Creative Writing from Grand Valley State University and been writing professionally since graduating in 2013. In addition to writing about love and relationships for Bolde and lifestyle topics for Love to Know, she also writes about payment security and small business solutions for PaymentCloud.

Originally from Michigan, this warm weather seeker relocated to the OC just last summer. Kelsey enjoys writing her own fictional pieces, reading a variety of young adult novels, binging on Netflix, and of course soaking up the sun.

You can find more about Kelsey on her LinkedIn profile or on Twitter @dykstrakelsey.