My Emotions Are All Over The Place And I Don’t Know How To Fix Them

No matter what I do, I seem to be an emotional wreck. I don’t know if it’s just my hormones or what, but nothing I do seems to fix it. Here’s how I’m feeling and what I’ve tried- I don’t know what to do at this point to make it go away:

  1. I’m tired and lethargic a lot. There’s always some reason I can conjure up, but clearly there’s more at play. Either it’s too hot, it’s too gloomy, I’m all worn out physically, my emotions are making me tired … and on and on and on. There’s always something and no matter how I try, I can’t seem to gain energy.
  2. I’m moody AF. I’m all over the place. I’m up, I’m down, I’m irritable, I’m happy. In the course of one day I must go through at least six different moods. It makes me crazy – it’s not like I enjoy being this way. Sometimes I can tell what’s causing it but mostly I have no idea.
  3. I gave up sugar – that didn’t work. It’s definitely helped a lot, but it hasn’t cured the problem. I do sleep better and I am a bit more even, but it seems like with all the lifestyle changes I’ve made, I’d be doing better than I am. I don’t understand my crazy brain.
  4. I gave up caffeine also – still not fixed. Again, it’s helped a bit – but I’ve given up everything at this point! No sugar, no alcohol, no caffeine – what’s next? Realistically, I’m not going to become vegan and juice all day. I already eat pretty healthy, but I’m not going to begrudge myself some cheating here and there.
  5. I tried sleeping more but I’m still tired. I know there is emotional stuff at play here, but I have so many reasons to be happy and excited for life. I try getting less sleep – I’m tired. I try sleeping in, but then I just never want to get up! I swear I would sleep all day if possible.
  6. Meditating just makes me even sleepier. I started meditating every day in order to boost my mood and positivity, but it seems to make me even lower energy! I have no sense of urgency and I float through my day. I can’t get enough done like that. It’s very frustrating when meditating isn’t helpful.
  7. Exercise helps, but it’s temporary. I definitely get an endorphin boost from exercise – I do it daily in order to stay sane. It helps a lot – for a little while. After a couple hours, I’m back to my low-energy self. It’s not as if I can just keep working out all day long – and I’d still be exhausted.
  8. I need to be productive and I can’t make myself do it. I don’t understand. Even when I know I have stuff that has to get done and I have no time to waste, I still put everything off and dawdle around. I’m not sure what’s going on in my brain when I openly just refuse to focus on required tasks.
  9. Even if it’s important to get up in the morning, I don’t do it. It takes a whole lot to drag me out of bed lately. Even when I have commitments, I can’t get up in time to get out of the house efficiently. I’m always running late even when I don’t need to be. It’s a huge issue and I’m terrible at solving it.
  10. Nothing motivates me anymore. Even if I get excited the night before about the next day, and tell myself I’m going to get up early and get it all done and have a great time, when the morning comes that’s all lost. All I care about is sleeping. I literally will not get up. I’m a mess.
  11. If I start crying, I can’t stop. I don’t get super sad often, but if my hormones are raging, watch out. Sometimes I have crying jags that last all night and I swear I’ll never stop. It’s horrible. I know it’s insane. I thought it was just PMS but it’s happening randomly now and I don’t understand.
  12. I spend money when I know I shouldn’t. I feel like I’ve eliminated so many bad methods of coping – i.e. drinking and binge eating – but I still spend money I don’t have just because. What is that? I’ll know that I should cook and not waste money going out, but I feel like it, so I do it anyway. It’s bizarre.
  13. I have no time to waste and I’m still not motivated. I used to be hyper productive. There was never enough time in the day to achieve and accomplish everything. There still isn’t, but the difference is that I just can’t make myself care. It’s all important but I’m not getting it done and I’m freaked out that it doesn’t matter more to me.
  14. I want to figure out my life but I keep stalling anyway. I have important tasks to accomplish. I know my life isn’t going to advance until I get them done, but I just never get around to it. No matter how consistently I tell myself to snap out of it and focus, I’m not doing it. I just can’t get back to that mindset.
  15. I don’t understand where my focus went. I went through a hard time with a guy, but it wasn’t bad enough to throw me into a depression. I’m making excuses not to get things done, even though I hate myself for it! Being moody like this is detrimental to everything in my world and I just want to be back in the positive place I was in before.
A former actress who has always loved the art of the written word, Amy is excited to be here sharing her stories! She hopes that they resonate with you or at the very least make you chuckle a bit. She just completed her first novel, and is also a contributor for Elite Daily, Dirty & Thirty, and The Indie Chicks.